I read a lot of books and I have these ideas in the books that I want to highlight and turn into eternal wisdom for myself and maybe others. I'm not sure how to get these ideas out of the books and into my conscious memory if I don't take notes. It's like these amazing ideas are stuck inside the books and I am trying to save them and rescue them. t the same time many of these ideas and phrases are "eternal wisdom" and therefore can be considered ready to plagiarize for my own books. I just don't have a framework for my own ideas that is worth augmenting anymore like I did with the Unamerican lines. I'm very frustrated that I am reading all of these books and don't yet have a way to turn that wisdom permanent so as to actually gain the achievements that such new truth code would imply.
I have no girlfriend. I have no revenue stream. I have no home of my own. I am totally on the side of the road in life. Everything I ever worked on for twenty years has whipped away into the wind. This is a very zen state of mind and in this zen state of mind I can read books with beginners' mind and that's the advantage.
Don't you wish you could write a hit book and have all of these money issues disappear? Even though my ethos remains, I am bored of it, and I need to make sure that I can get interested in it.